Well I made it through the night. It seemed like I was getting triggered by everything last night and because of it I felt weird and "floaty." I started a new med for sleep the night before last which seemed to help me sleep but then yesterday I went from really hyper and running around in the 18-20 inches of snow outside while digging out my car to really angry to then last night where I was certain things were going to end badly. I took double the dose of the sleeping med but still couldn't fall aslepp for a while. I slept off and on but at least for right now I feel okay. My thoughts haven't had a chance to wake up yet though so we'll see. Super Bowl party tonight at my brother's house so it should be another safe night by default. I just can't keep on like this for much longer so pdoc better be thinking of something to fix this and quick!!! Thanks again everyone for your encouragement and support. It means a lot.