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I have been depressed most of my life. Along with PTSD and DID, it makes things kind of hard. Since I had thyroid surgery last summer, my depression has been getting worse. It started with a weird "euphoria" feeling, shortly after surgery, then depressed, then back to "normal"...up, down, a little up, wayyy down. I never remember being this depressed before. I've started to hear my dad (who is dead) talking to me. It seems like my meds are doing nothing. I've told T and p doc but nothing ever comes of it. p doc asks me what I'd "like" to take. If I had that knowledge, I'd be a p doc.
All I know is the lows are lower than anything I ever felt. I cannot cry. I pray not to wake up in the morning and curse when I do. If I can't have some quality to my life, I don't wish to continue.
Does anyone think the thyroid surgery has anything to do with this? I am on synthetic thyroid meds now. I take Zoloft dexadrine and xanax also. Please, someone comment...I feel at the end of my rope.
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