I am sorry for the small rant I did.

Having a bad day today and I admit that it's more than the fetish that I am having problems with. I guess I focused on the fetish a little more because it has helped to calm me a little more than usual the past few years. Like I said originally it has become sort of a lifestyle that lets me escape the loneliness I have experienced for the past few years.

Yes...it's not just the fetish that is getting me down and out these days.

take care.