Goggles, pleased to meet you. I'm fresh out of advise except to tell you that all the negative thoughts you've been thinking about that friend of yours... it's the depression talking. It really messes with our thinking. Try not to allienate yourself from your friends unless they really get difficult to deal with.

Did the doctors put you on medication when you were in the hospital? Are you still taking it? Sounds like if you are still on meds, they may not be working or you need to increase them.

Hang in there. Talk to your doctor and keep posting.

<font color=blue>Don't die with your music still inside you.</font color=blue>