Hi Typo -

Your story has some similarities to mine. I feel for you because I know how absolutely miserable it can be.

I too was abused as a child. I didn't really fully understand the abuse until I was about 26 (32 now). And this was 7 years after I was in a terrible car accident in which myself and others were severely injured. I was the driver and I felt so much guilt even though I was hit head on by a drunk driver.

When I was 26 I started into therapy after going through a divorce and a period of drug use. It was only then that I truly started to understand my feelings. I've never been diagnosed with PTSD but I think that it is surely a good possibility. I think it might help me to just put a name to it.

Then about 2 years ago my brother was in a serious car accident. He didn't die but 4 people in the other car did. Once again my life took another jagged turn. I have been having flashbacks since then. Flashbacks of my childhood, of my car accident, my drug & alcohol use, and other poor decisions I've made.

I don't have the answers on how you get through this. I wish I did! However, I know that prayer has greatly affected my life. It has helped me to understand that God did put me here for a reason and that everything has happened for a reason.

Maybe you and I can chat sometime. I think we may have a lot in common and maybe we can be support for one another.

Thinking of you!!! Take care!!! Your story made me feel not so alone out here. Thank you.