Just going to the Psych for 3 month worth of meds is not going to cut it. I tried that for twenty years till I finally found out that talk therapy beats any kind of med you can pop....hands down!.......If this Psych you are seeing doesn't foot the bill, get another one till you find the one that can see your plight. It took me twenty years of Bipolar UPS and deressive DOWNS...It was exausting, and I had my hand on the trigger more than once......believe me...THAT'S NOT THE WAY.....
Meds only stop the pain a while to get your head around things.....It seems you are there....you just need the professional guidance a good Psych can give.....I can't do more from this keyboard but tell you that it has worked for me...and IF you want it, it will work for you......Post back, PM me or whatever....but don't go under...it can be better.....'the yutzman'