I can't sleep. My dad sat me down tonight and said we needed to talk.

I immediately started chewing my nails without even meaning to do it. Apparently, he needed to know when I can start getting Direct Deposit Advance through the bank again.

To turn the phones back on is two hundred. To pay the rent is eight hundred. The internet is behind almost two hundred. He says the gas bill will wait a week.

My child support hasn't started coming in yet. It's been months.

I won't get paid for another week. My last check is earmarked for all of this. He says to let the Internet bill slide for another cycle, which means they're just going to snowball us under further.

Where are me and my baby going to live? How am I going to get to work?

I was supposed to go out with a new acquaintance of mine (female friend) tonight, but she couldn't make it. Plans got canceled, just like the ones I made for my little sister's birthday (our ride screwed us over, and we didn't have gas money).

I'm stuck in the house like I've been for the last twenty-five years (except for work), and I hate it.

I try talking to people online, making friends, but the females get catty and the guys just want to cyber or make totally inappropriate advances.

I should just go to bed, but I know I wouldn't sleep.