I'm a girl, but I often think about how nice it would've been if I were born a male. I sometimes fantasize about it, and how different my life would (always somehow improved). At the same time, I'm told I act pretty girly and I'm generally into the female lifestyle. Still, I can't help feeling my mind is that from a male, and I could just as easily act manly. I face gender roles as something I'm extremely flexible about, and I'm sure I could act both like men and women. So, you see, it's not really that I envy the life of a man, it's more that I envy the body of a man.

Sometimes, however, I feel like I've gotten used to being a girl (and I definetly do NOT want a sex change), but not free of issues. I have sort of big boobs and, as attractive as some may think they are, I hate them. I can see they're pretty, I can see what guys like about them, but I feel like they're unnatural in my body. I imagine myself as a little girl just as often as I imagine myself as a man (from my same age). Sometimes I even fantasize I'm a little boy, althought that's not as common.

It's very confusing, especially when added to whom I'm attracted too: almost everyone. Or not quite. I mean, I have standards, of course, but it doesn't matter if they're male, female, even flamboyant gay males or straight women... I think they're all attractive. I like them old, of my age and (that's when it gets nasty) younger. The idea of a sexual encounter with most of them would sick me to no end, especially when regarding kids. I would NEVER have sex or any kind of sexual experience with a child, but I do appreciate their bodies and petite beauty. I think it's not really because I want them, but because I want to be them.

How crazy is that and do I do?