So i didn't get the job i wanted at the hospital because i screwed up the interview by getting so anxious that my mind went blank! The position was in mental health, so one of the interviewers recognised it for what it was and helped me recompose myself...... But they told me i didn't get the job because i struggled to answer some of their questions.

I don't know what to do. I am still going to apply for the mental health nursing course which begins next february, but i stand less of a chance of getting on that course if i don't have any care experience... I could try the care homes, but they usually want people with experience. The hospital doesn't have any other vacancies of my level at the moment.

Do i just go and get any old rubbish job, like i've been doing for the last 10 years?? I really need money, but i also need to feel like i'm going somewhere in life. All of the jobs i've had in recent years have made me feel so depressed and worthless... I don't know if i could do it again.



Stupid, stupid, stupid Lady Chaos!