Honestly? I havent even called to fire my old t yet. Though my appointment is this wednesday so i need to do that by monday or find the strength to tell her to her face she is fired and why. The phone seems oh so much easier. Tomorrow is friday, so i will *hopefully* do it then and then i can turn the appointment card over and call the same clinic but the office closest to my town and make a new appointment with a new t.

Not to make excuses.....but ive had a lot going on. Funks and stresses. For instance today was a fun day. We have $143 in the bank for the next two weeks. We have a bill that HAS to be paid that is $173 plus we have to actually live/groceries/gas. So we decide to take out $400 and deal with the $25 negative fee. We pay the bill and have about $220 left. Somehow between the store where we paid the bill and car the money has vanished. The bank account is already at -$271 and we have no money, half a tank a gas and no groceries for two weeks? Hmmm so after ripping the car apart shred by shred and looking under every crevice its no where to be found. Check back in the store and no one has found it but they take our phone number etc. We end up taking another $100 out of the bank. We get home and the store has called, someone found our money and actually turned it in! Amazing. So weird when your account is near negative four hundred bucks but you feel rich lol.

I agree sj, it IS amazing how often it seems like people are writing out of my own head. Kind of helps me realize that maybe when my t tells my thoughts are distorted that maybe she has a point. Kind of like if a dr told you its common for someone with the flu to cough a lot. Might be hard to accept that there is a reason for the cough other than an itchy throat. Then you go on a flu forum and suddenly everyone is posting about how bad their cough is. Thats a cruddy analogy but it made a LOT of sense before i actually typed it out lol.