Okay I could handle today until about 1:50 p.m. That was when I got a phone call that my cousin had died in a car accident. Since then I have not felt anything. I am pretty sure it is shock. Not something to have dumped on you when you are already depressed. I guess the one good thing is I can't go much deeper into depression now. But you never know. I am sorry if I am not suppuse to post that here. If you have to delete the post I understand.