My T finally called back. Apparently she just didn't check her messages this weekend. She apologized and said she was glad I picked up. (I was tempted not to.) She said she needs to get better at checking her messages. (You think?!) We scheduled a time tomorrow evening to talk. After I picked up I was feeling very resistant to talking to her tonight anyway, so I don't know if I would have been able to get out what I needed to anyway. I really need to get a lot of homework done tomorrow so I cannot continue to feel this way as it destroys my concentration. The other interesting thing about it was that she totally avoided using phrases related to self injury at all. She asked if I had needed to go to the ER or if I made it through the weekend okay. But seemed to avoid asking specific questions about it. It made it an awkward conversation in a way. Like she wasn't comfortable confronting it head on. Instead she needed to use euphemisms. I feel so emotionally drained from our two minute conversation scheduling a time to talk. And I'm so scared. I'm scared that she is going to be mad at me, mad at me for feeling this way. Part of me knows that isn't true (probably the same part that is keeping me from doing anything,) but it seems to be losing the belief battle.