I understand. I have beenn like that for a while now. I don't want to see anybody or do anything. The pain in your chest and stomach. The spinning in your head telling you that you would rather be dead. The thinking that SI will make you feel better. I don't know what to say to make it better for you. All I can say is that, I am going into the hospital Wednesday. I was actually beginning to listen to what my head was telling me and the pain. I came close to Suicide and I know that I have people to live for. And I am pretty sure you do too.