Hi All,

I looked through some of the posts on this Forum, and i can relate a lot to many of them.

I have been diagnosed with Bipolar about 6 months ago, ofcourse I had symptoms for years. I am currently on Trileptal ( i took Lamictal but i got the rash, so had to go off).

I'm sure BP starts slowely with many people and then as time progresses it gets worse. Well, it's gotten pretty bad for me.
I think the worst thing for me right now is the promiscuity and frequent drinking ( many times both). I used to be able to control myself, at least when it came to the alcohol, as my mood swings were pretty much out of control as long as I can remember.

For the past year, i have been drinking very often, it seems that this is the only thing that really calms me down. But i hate it now, i really do... I don't go out for Happy Hours with friends anymore of fear that i will get so drunk, i will drive back and get into a accident. I just open bottles at home and drink alone... I feel sick the next day, i am less productive at work, i neglect friends and family and my dog... .

I have read that this type of behavior is common for people with Bipolar, but i am fearing now that this is more than just BP, that i actually became addicted to alcohol and promiscuity... Is there anyone with the same problem?
I don't know what to do anymore....

I wake up everyday saying i will stop, but i fail every single time

Thanks in advance for your replies!