You know for about three years, I felt for the most part that I was actually winning my little war. But truth be told, I just built, with help from my treatment team and fear a safe little bubble. I sheltered myself from the pressures of life. I hit a hypo-manic phase, bought a house and a dog and now that I have all these obligations everything is drowning me. That is the enemy of bipolar disorder. The effing hypo-mania. I got over confident and self delusional and over extended myself. Now I am having uncontrollable emotions and I am not responding well. So, I am going to take as much of a break as I can. Which is hard because I have a 6 month dog I just saved from the Humane Society who needs constant house training. Watched 24/7 so she doesn't eat something she shouldn't, or develop unhealthy potty habits. I have a loving supportive woman in my life but she works. I know what I have to do but it's incredibly difficult right now. I have scheduled an appointment with my pdoc to discuss options. No need to worry about me. I am going to just stop everything and regroup so I am in no danger. I feel more duped and now know I can't be over confident about my ability to beat this.