Y'know....at first I could only think of all the bad things that come along with having a kid and now, after a few days of waiting I feel like, if I do take the test and it says negative I'm actually going to be a little disappointed.

I mean, we're not the worst people in the world to be in this situation. He is graduating with his masters and his degree starts him out at around 70000 a year plus I would be on salary from grad school and if I conceived 2 weeks ago then I would have it in the middle of Fall semester and wouldn't actually be doing field work or anything.

I don't know how I feel about it. I think I'm okay with either way now though. So at least I have calmed down a bit.