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Was the fear of getting caught (and perhaps considered a freak) entirely a problem for you, or was it also part of the attraction -- forbidden fruit, "I'm doing something they don't know about"?
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I was always 100% without a doubt afraid of getting caught. I became extremely clever at getting and hiding my diapers like making secret doors in the dry-wall in my room. I would cut dry-wall when my mom and dad were gone then stick an entire pack of Depends and Pampers in there. I would close this up and put a poster over it then put a shelf over it, screws and everything. On weekends I would take it apart and retrieve a diaper then wear it at night. I had to put it on slowly as to not make noises(the diaper would crinkle the tapes made sounds) So yes..I was very afraid of getting caught. In all my years though..I have never been caught, but I still take extreme measures at my own home at hiding it. I cannot take a chance of a friend or family finding out... I can't bare the thought of it.
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Why a six-year-old would, is the sort of thing that psychoanalysts speculate and argue about, often without arriving at a completely satisfactory answer. Why you did, you could probably reconstruct by looking at your own experience of it for a while
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My goal is to find out why...why at 6 years old I needed to feel the serenity of wearing diapers. I still remember my first attempts at this fetish... I would put the diaper on and suck my thumb....at 6 years old. I have been thinking very hard for the last week as to why I think I did that so young... I believe back then I did indeed needed the attention, to be a baby again, because something I needed was not there... I want to know what that something is and I have wondered about this for my entire life.
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Could you be thinking of San Francisco? There's a famous Bay-to-Breakers race there but I've never heard of one in San Diego, a significantly more conservative community the last I heard.
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Maybe it's San Francisco...I get them confused lol. Though I have seen pics of people wearing diapers at that race..out in public in the heat of the day. Also some race completely naked and it's allowed. I would never do it naked though!
I would love to wear my diaper in front of everyone though. Google Bay to breakers race diapers and you will see what I am talking about.
I am 80% sure that the guys that wear the diapers at this race are fetishist like myself, but who knows.
Can I post pics?....lol
