Those other forums are full of people just like me and they talk about the fetish, different diaper brands how to make the adult kind more babyish adding prints..ect ect. They will help you if you're feeling strange about the fetish and they're always nice to you. However they will always agree with you..never give negative for your fetish...Their advice is biased because they are into the same thing. I wanted to go out of the circle and bring this into a place where, probably, I am the only one of my kind in that place. I wanted to see what reactions non AB/DL would have and how they see the person engaging in such fetishes. I'm trying to prep myself before I seek pro help offline and posting about this in a forum like this helps me with what I need to explain and bring out. I will also admit...seeing positive replies towards this helps me feel a bit more normal and that does help a lot. People could easily right me off as a pervet and that would hurt...making me feel even more ashamed of this fetish.

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If you had one wish regarding this fetish - what would it be? What I mean is - do you wish you could forget about it or what would you wish for??

I would wish to have a regular sexual relationship and forget diapers and anything to do with it.

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I also wonder if the mystery was taken out of this fetish, would this make it less appealing where you would feel better -

I believe once the mystery of why I have this thing is found out, then I truly believe that my lust for the fetish would be a lot less if not totally gone. I wouldn't forget it, but I wouldn't miss the inconvience, or trouble it brings into relationships. I believe I could build a better life with someone without this fetish. I am hoping my lust is gone once I get into the whys, because I want a S.O so bad and the fetish is preventing it, it's not easy for another to cope and take part in such a fetish..it turns them off to see a man wearing diapers and sleeping with them in a one piece pajama.

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after all alot of this fetish comes from the forbidden, secretive nature. I'm just full of questions -aren't I(lol)?

I don't mind..... Most DL/AB would never come out with it, but I decided too, because I was tired of wondering why me... why do I have this silly addiction.. I needed to present it to the non AB/DL community and ask what they think.. I am happy to explain to you what it's all about and it feels good to show people that the people that take part in these fetishes are not crazy people that will end up wearing diapers and straight jackets in an institution. We are not perverts either and never into any bad things that some like to associate the AB.DL community with.