I used to cut and it did calm me. The can't-breathe-can't-sit-still-can't-calm-down feelings always made me want to. The last time I felt that way, I got through it without cutting and haven't cut since although I do still have razor blades. My md finally stopped making me take off my jackets and roll up my sleeves checking for cuts. I recently admitted to my therapist that I used to do that. I tried to explain how it made me feel, that it didnt' hurt anyone. She told me that she and my head dr won't see someone who is cutting. Great. Just leave me out there on my own. Really kind of made me mad. Anyway, I am trying to say in my rambling sort of way that cutting really isn't the answer. Believe me, I know it makes you feel better for a while but you really have to be careful not to damage anything or get an infection. The answer is to get the help you need. Please. Thinks will get better. Take care and good luck.