((((teary_me))))
I hear you teary and I understand. Please reach out here if you can and talk to us. We will not judge you or lecture you. Sounds like you need to talk and to be heard. We care so much and are here for you when you are ready to talk.
I am sorry that those around you would lecture you. Sometimes all we need is for someone to reach out and listen. It is not that we expect them to do anything just to hear. And we are listening.
Sorry you are feeling so bad. Please take gentle care of yourself and know we are here for you. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps