((((googley))))
Sorry you are feeling so bad. We are here if you want to talk. Please try to really talk to your t. They can help you sort out those feelings we are sometimes not sure of. And what may seem that we do not understand, we may really understand with some help.
You deserve to be heard and to have help. I know how hard it is to study when things are so out of place. It is hard to concentrate when your mind is anywhere but on your work. But googley, you are fighting it and that is a step forward.
I know it takes all the energy you have but you are doing it. One step, one day, one minute, one second at a time is all you have to do. Keep reaching here for we care so much and are here to walk this with you. You are not alone although it feels that way. Been there and it is a terrible feeling.
Depression lies to us and it paralizes our ability to see and to do anything. It wants us to feel this way so we cannot seem to do anything. But you took a step forward and you posted here. You are trying and you are doing a great job even in the midst of it all.
I know it is not easy. I know it takes all you have to sometimes even take a small step. But we are reaching out to you and listening. We care googley. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps