(((((((((((((((deli)))))))))))))))))

IF you don't want to move until the bed comes, that is one thing...but if you are really ready to go, could you toss down an air mattress? Even a sleeping bag? It would solve the "creepy stuff at night time" issue. Which, expected or not, sucks

Can you call pdoc and schedule something with him? It seems like being with your safe person would be huge right now. You can see Austin-T too. But gosh, if what you NEED is to go and sit and be safe with pdoc, I hope you will give that to yourself. It's not like you need a trip to the moon, or an extravagant piece of jewelry, or to be the star of a movie...you need to call your safe person and go and sit with him a bit. That's not too much to ask...not even close. Could you give that to yourself?

And finally...are you back on the meds yet? I just wonder if that would help you through this HUGE transition. I know that sometimes when I am in the middle of something BIG like you are, I am so unforgving of myself and so impatient...and when I look back years later, I can't believe I treated myself like that. Sometimes our expectations for ourselves are SO high. Be gentle with deli

Mainly, I hope you get some relief soon, dear one.