it's tuesday at 0740 and i am feeling a bit off. went to bed at 2230 and was up at 0330 with aching jaw muscles and feeling antsy. put on a meditation tape and got back to sleep until 0530. grabbed some sleepytime tea, my anxiety workbook, opened the bedroom window for some fresh cold air and took a .25mg xanax. just didn't feel like fighting it today. it's now 0800 and i am going to take a hot bath, journal, listen to chants, and hopefully either go back to sleep or go over the gyme and exercise for an hour. usually i feel better after a couple of tai chi sets ans some positive affirmation walking. i do a physical checklist and find i am in pretty good shape for 58. may be an afternoon of crawling into a jigsaw puzzle. getting my monthly massage at 1600 and back home to cook dinner.
i have .5mg xanax but i usually cut them in half and only take them when i can't do my other techniques or, like today, when i just feel too tired to fight it or ACT it.
maybe i'm just feeling a bit sorry for myself for no good reason.