Hi everyone

I havent posted on here for a bit but feel I need someone to talk to that know's what i'm going through.

Just before xmas I had a friend of 14 years stop talking to me what I asked her why she would not tell me (still will not) what I had done wrong with doing this she has made my anorexia come back I lost 1st in two weeks due to this prob I have managed to keep at a healthy weight just but I just can not stand the thought of putting food in my mouth I have gone back to my old way's of day's on end with out food my husband & kids know about me having it back & try very hard to get me to eat everyday but when I do it is a very small amount I hate myself so much for getiing like this again as I was just off of betting it for 3 years when I had anorexia the first time my youngest boy started to do the same as me with not wanting to eat & saying he was fat & he is far from it then & now & I am so scared that he will do the same again this time I have been to the doctor's & am getting sent to a T but when that will be I don't know this ex friend of mine said some really nasty hurtfull stuff to me & I will hate her for ever for what she said but I really need help with keeping on top of my ED sorry to go on.