((((((((((((((Deli)))))))))))))) Sounds like you have a LOT of change right now happening. A lot of GOOD change that still brings up the fears and worry, doubt, insecurities. I would say talk it out with your friend - have a heart to heart. It is important, and like you said, you don't want to lose a friend.
I just moved too - and I TOTALLY was at the "omg this is all (fill in the blank) I think this is a mistake and I should just stay at home (in the bad, toxic, abusive situation, just like you have been in).
I stuck with it and you can do so too. It means dealing with a lot of emotions all at once. It means finding someone to be your 3am call "crisis" person AND CALLING them. It means reaching out just like you are doing! It means moving forward one shakey step at a time. And you ARE doing it!
Keep breathing - you are doing things in the best way you can. I am proud of you.
Hugs, Kiya