Sorry I have been so quiet. I have a cold and have been generally tired the last few days.

Here is something interesting though. I went to a family reunion last weekend. I got home and haven't had that inevitable crash that usually ends in serious damage. Here is something mega weird though. Before I was admitted into the psyche ward at the hospital I would do what I could to get my mom's approval. She would get into something like native american spirituality I would copy her. She would do the color analysis and I would copy her. Anything she would do I would do as well. The problem was she was never doing the same thing so I was always a step behind and never doing what she thought was the right thing at the time. Anyway. I got sick. In getting sick I realized I wanted to find ME. Who was I. What did I want from life. Who did I really want to be. When those questions came I found the only way I could find the answers was to cut myself off from my family emotionally. This was hard but I stopped attaching myself to my mom. Stopped looking for her approval (as best as I could) and started doing my own things.

OK now for the wierd part. This weekend I noticed that MY MOM IS COPYING ME! It is so bizarre. She has started cutting her own hair, just like me. She has joined a spiritual group of the same nature as my spiritual path. She has joined a gym to get buff like me. I mentioned this to my husband and he said he had noticed it a few months ago when she joined weight watchers like I did.

So what is up with this?
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson