Had my second T appt. last night.
It went well. I still have some "black slimey" feelings that linger in my head. I still get triggered with intense anger over the smallest things.
And, I am committing to the fact that becoming well is a process...and somedays will be better then others.
I get so easily frustrated. And when that happens I immediately go to the false comfort of thinking if I were gone it would be all better.
I need to figure out how to stop that thinking and redirect it to a better way of dealing with my anger, hurt, rejection.
Even if there is no real rejection, even if I just feel abandoned in my head because I am so sensitive...I need to lengthen my "fuse" in order to redirect my emotions so I don't just see things as ALL BAD.
Anyay, that is where I am today.
Trying to remember it is a process and complete change does not happen overnight.