Thanks everyone for your replies and advice.. I just need to get through these next two months and then things will hopefully be better. I just hate feeling this way.. I hate crying all the time for no reason (or for something minor) and I hate feeling like everyone is against me and that no one cares. I know these paranoid feelings will pass once the winter is over and I do realize that the anniversary of my cousin and grandma's deaths which are soon approaching is probably also not helping my state of mind but I just wish I could stop feeling like this and that I wasn't so easily upset by everything. The good news is, I finally am sleeping again.. (have to admit, my insomnia sure gets better when I'm depressed and that's probably the only time that I do actually sleep quite a bit). And yes, I do have a wonderful german shepherd who is always right by my side and I don't know what I would do without him.. last night he could tell I was upset and when he heard me crying he ran and jumped on my bed and layed right beside me and gave me kisses. He's the best therapist I could ever have

Thanks again everyone for all your support.. I appreciate it and am glad to have such caring and sweet friends here at PC. ((((((((((((hugs to all))))))))))))))))) And Lynn, thanks for making me smile when I read your previous post about Jasper