I'm already on meds (though been stable on the doses for three years). I'm supposed to get blood tests done every three months, but he hasn't done that either (I haven't been tested since I was with my last pdoc in August). I feel like it is all my responsibility for everything. Like I don't get a lot of help from him. He did call me to let me know he is on crutches so he needs to change our procedures next week. He suggested that maybe I should wait until he is in a walking cast in a couple of weeks, but I gave him a suggestion of how we may be able to work around it. So he is considerate in that way, but still it feels like there is little connection. And I don't feel like I can talk to him about it. It feels more like a medical doctor's appointment than a mental health appointment. And since I'm really good at postponing going to the doctor (I think I broke my toe recently and never went to get it checked out- even though it still hurts in places and it is three weeks later), it is easier to do that with this also.