Tonight I gave all the meds I had been hiding to my husband. I don't want to take the chance that I may do something stupid... I almost poured all the meds into my hot coffee this morning. They would have put me to sleep - a sleep that I would never have waken up from. Thank you for your honesty and for you message. Thank you for careing enough to send the message. I see my pdoc next week and my husband has decided to go with me now. Thank you...