I think it is great that you are going outside of your "box" to take good care of yourself. You can do this, its OK. That is what pdoc wants to hear. That you are doing well or not well on what he has given you. If you feel that you are sinking, there is no need to feel that way on medication. Tell pdoc and see what he says. If you need to go up, then so be it. You are on the meds to feel better and improve your life, if it doesnt do that at this dose, there isnt much of a point to it, right?

I just had to adjust things with my meds and I felt like I had this huge crash off of them. But now I feel better after some adjustment. That is, unfortunately, the way it works. The dose or med needs to be changed or altered and sometimes it takes a while to figure that out. I wish it could be instantaneous!