Thanks jennaorgana! I've done some research already and like the idea of it!

Sannah - I think it's friday, I might have to reschedule though because I've been pretty sick lately. I'm not sure if I'm going to go or not.

I've always wanted to tell him, I just never knew how to say it. Now that other people who are close to me have figured it out I feel like I might as well get it over with soon. I've been trying to have a really open relationship with him and he knows there's something I'm hiding from him. He doesn't know just how large that underlying problem is though so it's hard for him to know what I'm going through.I think part of the reason why he gets so upset is because he has no clue what I deal with on a daily basis. I don't want his pity, nor anyone else's for that matter, but I think that he would have a better understanding of who I am as a person if I told him about it.

Perhaps I trigger more easily because I'm more willing to open up or want to. I tend to put things behind me or bottle so it's hard when I have to spill everything out on the table or even a small amount of things that I otherwise don't want to deal with. There's a reason why I never share anything, because then I have to think about it and deal with it. This would in turn lead to SI. I never learned how to handle things properly before.