I'm just going to the clinic to get a second opinion. I will NOT be staying in the hospital there! And my parents won't be with me. In fact, they are not even in the country!! I'm spending the night before at my Aunt's house, which should help cuz we always play cards! Then I have to drive about two hours in the morning before my appoinment.

The end of the month will mark my fourth year of treatments for my depression. (At the beginning, I said I'd never make it to 5 years) I'm just nervous because I don't know what is going to happen there. It's just an appointment, so what they decide to do from there I don't know. I can stay the night at my Aunt's house if it gets late or they want me to come back the next day. But for me, when taking a trip, I like to know how long I'm going to be gone and what I will be doing. So this is very stressful to me!

And I've actually been getting worse lately. Even the things I still had interest in with my depression, I now find don't matter to me. I don't want to do anything. I'm tired! This worries me cuz if I can't get myself to do things, no one can! I just want the snow to go away so I can enjoy the warm weather again, just me and my cats! (plus the baby kittens too)