(((zoo)))

I believe you.

I don't even know how many times I asked my own T if he believed me. It is ok to ask again, and again, and again if you need to. Part of the process, I think, is allowing yourself to believe that it happened.

It can be really difficult to reconcile the idea that a horrible event happened to a person that is lovable. Almost every single time I found myself doubting that T was there for me, or that he believed me, after time I found it was my own distrust of myself.

You will slowly find that trust in yourself again. For now, lean on T and let her know how you're feeling.