I have written a lot of rubbish in the past, a consequence of a mind ill at ease. Forgive me if I offended and came across as arrogant, I am far from it. I have been consumed by self loathing and at times I think I have come across as a snob. I am not. I care deeply about everybody here at PC and my heart pains so much at times it is difficult to read many of the postings as I feel inadequate as to how to comfort and support those in their dire moments.

It has been a difficult few months trying to come to terms with myself and my image of who I am. I will try harder to be more supportive and less egotistical and self obsessed, Mental Illness, in my case robbed me of a sense of self and I much to my shame have at times written of certain priveleges that I have. BUt in honesty these priveleges mean nothing and showed me up as an arrogant, self obsessed individual.

I want to be an ordinary supportive contributor to PC who comforts and stands by those in need.

I am sorry to you all that I have been so arrogant and materialistic, it is not where I am at now.

I am doing well, I have passed my exams with flying colours. I want to post more but feel my words are lacking.

My apologies to one and all

Paddy