we think that is part of the dissociative protection.......the inability to fully grasp just how bad or separate things are until AFTER they're over.

we're glad to hear your meltdowns are not requiring days of bedrest to recover from.

it is quite the leap to go from realizing that one dissociates a lot to realizing when that dissociation is actually happening....and why.

relate all too well and wish we knew nothing of such things (personal feeling........nothing to do with any here)