I think things a getting a little better... Except the fact I hurt my friend and the mention of his name make my chest tight, because it hurts to remember that night...and i know there are more things in life wayyy more stressful than a guy it still hurts.... But Im finally seeing the sunrise over the hill, the sun is finally coming back the north pole after a long wait. But still after those months the sun goes away again, but I hope this last longer than the darkness Im finally gonna see a psychiatrist, im nervous but stoked, haha if thats a word you can say in the same sentence as psychiatrist Im finally getting help that I desperately need and things are seeming to get better...

Now I can concentrate more on my BestFriendForever who needs comfort and guidance and concentrate a little more on school, and I didnt fail any classes semester 1, YAY ME, Every class above 60 AHHHH exciting

So many smilies make me happy haha