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Originally Posted by BNLsMOM
So I was lying in bed waiting for my Seroquel to take effect and suddenly I felt like I was remembering things from childhood and early adulthood in living technicolor. It was as if I were on a tour of things that happened to me.
Now, I have never been sexually abused repeatedly by the same person, but I have had several one-time, bordering on abusive experiences by different people at different times in life.
Like in "A Christmas Carol" I felt last night as if the Ghost of Christmas past were taking me on tour of every one of them. There were a few that I hadn't remembered before last night and it was both shocking and upsetting.
I kept going back and forth between several of them and going back to preeschool years trying to see if there were any more that I have repressed.
I felt as if I were glued to the bed. I wanted to get up and scream and shake it off but I was stuck.
Today I feel OK.
What the heck was that?
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it could have been just about anything reliving past memories because you are mentally at a place where your brain thinks you can handle knowing, it could have been a medication or mental disorder induced hallucination mixing reality with not real elements. it could have been you reading things here are messing with your subconscious mind so that you are taking on other peoples problems as your own. it could be anything even some physical medical problem going on manifesting itself in messing up your thinking processes. the only way to know what it was is by you telling your therapist, psychiatrist and doctors that it happened so they can adjust medication if needed or run some tests to find out what it was. Id say its time to call in the professionals and go through the loops with them to find out what it is so you can get the right treatment for the problem and then you wont have to worry about it any more.