I'm not taking the new meds now and I'm not going to take the new meds in the future.

I can't trust her.

I'm not going to turn into some conformer who idolises pdocs every desicion and I'm not going to let her turn me into a zombie so that I dont care what meds I'm on.

Some people are on that many meds, and that makes the true essence of who they are vanish.

I'm not gonna let that happen to me cos I can't deal with that and its not my destiny.