ok i get it now.
Thanks for explaining.
I'm just afraid of being zombied by meds, and I don't trust pdoc enough.
I would be on the same amount of meds because pdoc was changing the mood stabiliser one.

IDK I am just so crap at trusting people.
don't know why. .

I think if I can get reassurance from pdoc and discuss it a bit more I could consider doing what she thinks will help me.

I don't want to be struggling or not compliant with meds, but I think that I need to have my anxiety about things reduced so that I can feel well.

any way I see pdoc in about 16 hours so I can talk to her then.