RedCylon -
Thanks so much for your reply. Sometimes it's hard to remember that other people have gone through (or are going through) the same situation. Just today I have decided to stop taking the citalopram. Maybe not the most responsible action, but my sleep has been pretty bad on it and I just need a good night's sleep. It seems to give me the jitters at night, even if I feel tired I also feel jumpy and can't sleep until 2am. I feel disappointed because I think I can feel it working during the day to cut out the low self esteem. Anyway - it's a process. Thinking of maybe asking the doc about trazodone (??)
RedCylon - what did you do while you were unemployed? Was there anything that helped you feel (somewhat) better?