Thanks everyone
Darkrunner- This is a very comforting thought to me. That I was just never taught. Its as if I am hard on myself for not realizing that I wasnt taught these things and I should teach myself. But how was I to know? I didnt have the tools to do it.

I have done more than I thought I would, I have a family and a home. I can even pass as mainstream LOL! I think if I can clear this up in the next 6 mos I will feel a lot freer. It will just take time and I will breeeeeathe through it.

Stumpy- Im sorry you have had these same things go on. Its really rough. What a great T you have that is going to go over your actual bills with you. Sometimes that is what is needed! I am going to spend time on monday talking to ftt about finances and my next huge step. Its a big one. I cant do it without seeing her on monday. But its all good.

Maybe tell the peeps they can help???? They dont like the money thing, huh? When I first made this one hard phone call this week I felt myself dissociating on the phone. I could feel myself going and I FORCED myself to stay present. It was an important phone call and I stayed mindful of every word she was saying to me. It worked. I couldnt believe it worked. And the phone call wasnt so bad. She was nice. But the info I was given was hard to hear.

So, stay present, Stump, you can do it! Theme song???? Hmmmm....What about the theme song to Seseme Street? Its kinda catchy.....

Or....the therme song to The Flintstones? Nuf said.....