Shame is such a hard thing to work through. I haven't been able to go there at all. AT ALL.

You and your T seem to have such a wonderful relationship that whatever you decide to do will be fine. Sharing what you are experiencing now may even be worthwhile to discuss, because it all means something and can help with the therapeutic process.

My T is only directive when he feels that something is dangerous...which is why he was directive in helping me to get out of my marriage and to set up boundaries with my ex. Other than that, I lead the way.

Sometimes I don't like that though, because it gives me too much of the control - so I am not pushed to go places that I would not go on my own - even though I know I need to go there.

*sigh*

So hard....