Thanks for your reply, but I'm not taking the topamax any longer, it seems either by the time I was up to 50mg. (target 100mg) I mysteriously got a "bug" or reaction so the doc said stop and restart when the diarrhea goes away. Hell I'm not going to bother, it made me tired like the old depakote use to, and I do not need that, I'll never lose the weight these damn meds. caused me to gain, if I am too tired to exercise!! I was so tired or sedated or whatever, I fell asleep while driving home from my bloodwork, very scary, that happened twice last year when I was still on depakote. I need mild stimulants not to be additional sedated, the doc only gave me the topamax thinking it would help me with my weight, I don't think so, especially if it makes you feel like not doing anything. Enough of my problems. Your trip sounded beautiful, and spiritual, I'm sure Suzanne preferred it that way, you see you celebrated her life, you all were away from all life's distractions. You were with just yourselves and Suzanne. I understand just what you meant that you did appreciate everyone's condolences, but you do all need to have your own special time. Cam, you sound you are doin much better, follow your heart and not always what "they" all tell you to do, take care now.
Thanks!
"darkeyes"