I don't know. I'm confused about my feelings. Because I have asked her before if she believed me, and trusted her answer. But lately there has been a change in how I feel she is relating to me, or is it in how I'm relating to her? I don't know.

I want it to be me, just all in my head. I want that feeling that I KNOW T is with me through this back, I know I felt that before but I don't feel it now and it scares me.

I think if I call her now I could get her voicemail, which would be good because I'd like to leave her a message and not so much talk to her right now. I'd like to leave her a message and say I feel alone in this and I don't know why. I feel like I did something wrong and I don't know what. I feel like she's being distant and cold and it's not helping, it's making things worse.