OMG Deli - your life is my life right now. Swapping out one hell for the other. The only difference is that the parent (and abuse) isn't here. T says "You own your own life now"... I am trying to hold on to that. It is hard to be so depressed about this when everyone says "it's so wonderful, oh you must be so happy, this is terriffic!" I wish I could feel any of that. I guess that is what T is trying to tell me - I OWN this. I am no longer owned. I still feel owned - by the circumstances. But t tells me that is victim thinking. I don't want to be a victim. That is i guess the only thing pushing me forward (if lying in bed with my puter at 11am can be considered 'forward'). I really am depressed about this and keep thinking I've made a mistake... that home "wasn't really THAT bad"... but that is the warning sign for ppl in domestic violence and abuse situations.
Don't listen to the parents Deli - they are going to tell you what is in their best interest, not yours. Mom is giving me all the same grief.
one step at a time - we'll do this together.