So I went to my third appointment with the campus counselor, and I gotta say, it went much much better than the first two. I was actually able to spit out what I needed and wanted to say -- including my concerns that I'm about 90% certain that I'm bipolar -- and I feel like I actually accomplished something significant this session. Go me! :]
Now I have homework to do: I need to utilize a couple of close friends as a means of keeping me from cutting when I feel the urge, something I've only done once since I began (I don't talk much to my friends about this...), not to mention I need to talk to my mother (I am NOT excited about that, but it's gotta happen eventually, and I need to...) about my concerns -- not the SI part, at least not yet, just the part about having a possible mood disorder -- so hopefully, assuming financial hurdles are cleared, that'll open some doors to receiving a professional psych evaluation, which in turn, may lead to some means of helping to stabilize these mood swings of mine, which will GREATLY help reduce the need to regain control over myself, aaaand that means I'm that much closer to stopping my self-injury.
Sooooo, now comes the hardest part: TALKING... *sigh* It always sounds much easier than it is, doesn't it? :/