T has told me recently that he really doesn't want me to suffer and it makes him want to jump in to do things to make the suffering stop....but he said that that isn't what he is there for, and he has to hold himself back and let me find my path. It seems with this Thursday thing that he's forgetting that.

So....it feels like T is kind of making a mistake in being SO directive (because I know that's not how he does therapy),

and I really don't think that *his* plan for getting rid of the shame will work, because it's *his* plan, not something coming from my own internal wisdom and drive to heal.