MissMarple (Sara),

Welcome to Psych Central......keep up the poems,,,,,,they are a great way of expressing yourself....hope you find it a good place to stay.

Wisewoman,

I hope you can realize that your crappy feeling is really from being sick....infections really pull us down so we can feel like it is the mental stuff making us feel that way. I have always had the opposite thinking.....I remember a year ago when I was feeling really lousy.....I kept thinking I had the flu....I would lay in bed for days....temp up & down & up.....dizzy, nausea....but in my case I finally realized that my husband had pushed me to the point where my depression had flared up again......first I think physical.....then mental.

In your case it really is physical....hope your new antibiotics will help.....it just takes time...especially if the first antibiotics didn't work.....you WILL feel better soon....then you can worry about the other things....your first goal should be to get better....we are here, pulling for you.

As for my goals, I just couldn't get to a mental place to go to my Mothers house....I would set a time to leave & when it came, I just couldn't go....the time will come...I know....Guess the best thing to do would really be to leave it spur of the moment....I go there when I feel like it, not it's time to go...I don't feel like it.

The information for the lawyer I have been working on daily & don't seem to get any closer to the point it can be turned....always more information pops up.

I haven't heard back from the Dressage trainers in Bishop.....I just have to wait.....not like it is critical yet. And today, I think I will give my 26 year old horse the day off.....we have riden daily for the last 5 days.....I think he deserves a day off.

There were a lot of little things that came up daily that I had to take care of that never entered he goals catagory...but they all add up to the things that had to be done....I am exhausted.

Debbie