Hey anxietygirl,
I agree with phipps88fan. That is the problematic thing about depression. It tries to convince you that if you just worked a little harder you could pull yourself out of it. I have found it especially difficult because my parents haven't really known how to react. I'm a grown woman, but somehow their occasional lack of "acceptance" and understanding about depression still pushes buttons. I finally had to send my Dad a link stating what depression was in medical terms. It is an ailment and just like any other it affects the way you live and work - how you do your job. Possibly more so because the pain can be so difficult to overcome. You don't need to feel guilty. It is just important that you care for yourself.